The most racist thing i have ever done

I've done a lot of racist shit. The most racist thing I've ever done, the act that had the most effect was dating a white woman. Loving a white woman was the most harmful thing that I have ever done to my people. In the eyes of a lot of people who I love and respect it was the most obvious act of self hatred that I could have committed.
I never thought of it that way. I didn't
The second most racist thing, was to have two kids by two different women and not marry either one of them, thereby contributing to the statistics of unwed mothers and long distance/absentee black fathers.
I never planned any of this, I never planned on being a statistic, but I guess no one ever maps the negatives out, never really anticipates making bad decisions that are going to affect the whole rest of their lives. It is all I know how to do now, to play catch up.

more on these things later.